“I give myself permission to take things slowly and breathe. To not have all the answers or be able to clearly see the destination at the end of this journey. But I’ll keep going. I’ll keep sowing. Following that inner pull and nudging. I’ll keep growing and trusting that wherever I end up is where I was meant to be.” -Tinita 

Have you ever done something you felt you were supposed to do but still felt doubt and uncertainty at every turn?

Friend, here’s the truth: I don’t know what I’m doing. I’m just following a push I feel in my spirit to share my journey with mental health, gardening, and family. Plus, doing so feels really good.

Since I started gardening I was awakened by the interconnection it has with our mental, emotional, spiritual and physical health, as well as our relationships with others. Heck might as well just say LIFE, cause that’s really what it boils down to.

Oh but imposter syndrome is so real and for someone who is growing through these mental and hormonal health challenges it can get extra ugly. 

For every moment of excitement and motivation comes double the thoughts of “not good enough”, “who are you to enter this space” or “who is going to listen to you or care”. 
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I’ll admit the thoughts get me for a minute. Like when I’m unable to write because I’ve allowed those thoughts to rob me of my words and perspective or when I’m engulfed in the comparison trap. 

However; I have decided to give myself permission to grow slow on this journey, to call these thoughts and feelings out for what they are, “lies” and to keep pressing forward. All without knowing exactly what will unfold or where I’ll arrive but trusting I’m headed in the right direction.

Showing up in perfection has never been my goal and if you’ve followed me for any of amount of time prior to this relaunch, I hope that is something you’ve gathered about me and that will remain true.

Transparency on the journey is what I full heartedly believe I am purposed to share. It is where I feel most connected to you and most impactful.

While I can’t say that the doubtful thoughts will magically disappear I can say that I am committed to walking the path and seeing where it leads.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plants to give you hope and a future.”